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It's all in the hips, all in the hips. [10 Oct 2007|10:17pm]
 I haven't written in here forever.  I'm not a real thoughtful or even interesting person anymore.  Here's what I do:
I go to my internship 2 days a week from 7:30-3:30 and the rest of the day is pretty much wasted because my kids drain my energy and I've got so much to do and I stay up farrr too late and wake up FARRRRR too early.  
So anyway, I had intentions for this to be a nice positive update/insight into my life but I've got none of that right now... negative Nancy, that's me!!!
But yeah, my internship is going pretty well expcept for the fact that some of my kids are evil and my coordinator is stressing me out and ruining my life....  I divide the rest of my time up between my 3 UCF courses, my insane amounts of homework, my boyfriend, and my job.

Although I'm not even certain I'm still what you would call "gainfully employed" since in the last 8 weeks I've probably worked a total of 10 shifts.  ANY-WAYYYY.... Life is decent I guess.  I tried to really lose weight at the beginning of the semester but only ended up giving up, getting depressed, and gaining at least five more pounds.  My new goal is to keep gaining until I'm so heavy that I qualify for gastric bypass surgery.  I'm so fat I've probably only got another 50 pounds or so to go.,  The one positive thing in all of this is that my boyfriend (who is inherently shallow and face-value oriented) still loves me just as much as he did when I was 35 pounds lighter.  He still likes my body as much, and thinks I'm just as beautiful.... 
weird- I know, but I've got to take what I can get and if taking consolation in that small victory is it then give it here. 

I'm drowning in a sea of my own laziness and disorganization.  I try to be more motivated and proactive but I really repsond best to stress and pressure, and that comes and goes in disgustingly unregulated waves, which means my productivity comes and goes in waves.... useless.

Basically I'm trying to get the most out of this semester but I'm constantly feeling buried by everything that goes on in my life.  Oh- some good news?!! I'm getting a new computer in a few weeks.  Since mid-summer my former laptop has been possessed by Satan in a way that is truly frightening and disgusting.  For a while it was usable, but now it's to the point of utter ruin and I was beginning to feel as if my life was heading down that path as well.  Thankfully my dad was feeling generous on this visit home so he decided to by new laptops for both myself and my sister!  HOW EXCITING! mine is midnight blue and hers is spring green. I should have gotten pink to avoid Scott being all up in my shit, but alas- I'll just have to find some way to keep him away from it!!
Well, I'm about 2 hours behind in the work that I journeyed to the computer lab to complete, and I'm becoming more miserable by the second.

Miss you all <3 Kez!
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Every day is exactly the same [27 Apr 2006|08:28am]
[ mood | I hate you so much right now ]

Things I like about being an "adult":
Last night for dinner I had
a rum and coke
a chocolate ice cream
One chicken nugget
one french fry

Things I don't like about being an "adult"
It's all me...
no one else is responsible for the mess I get myself into...
that stinks.

Boys are stupid, and girls are even dumber. Doesn't seem possible, but it is. Not only do we put up with and make adjustments for their stupidity and immaturity, but we excuse it and adapt ourselves to it.

I hate having a period.

I'm done... that is all folks.


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wish you were here... or that I was there. [24 Apr 2006|08:41am]
[ mood | sick ]

I hate my life a little bit.
Actually a lot.
I'm going to have to use one of my grade forgiveness this semester, and that makes me sad.

I have no plans for the future, which is bad because everyone expects something from me.

One of my wonderful girls from TX sent me a graduation invitation the other day. I can't make it, but I'm so incredibly proud of her anyway. She's actually gone somewhere with her life. She had a plan, and she worked hard and stuck to it. Why can't I be one of those people?

I'd better go. I'm late for mentoring, and I'm full of complaints this morning.
My boobs hurt, my teeth hurt, I'm sick, I'm tired... my life stinks.

Good news is my boyfriend is wonderful, and I'm blessed w/a good job that makes enough money for me to support my expensive habits. i.e shopping for purses.

A girl has got to have one guilty pleasure. At least mine isn't cocaine...

Omg- ONE MORE COMPLAINT. This weekend my mom and my sister and I all went out, and as we were driving past someone's house some bitch backed her car into mine. Like we had stopped and everything. The thing was I let my sister drive my car, and she like couldn't move backwards fast enough, and she like didn't blow the horn in time EVEN THOUGH we were all telling her to.

So anyway, the important part is that the woman we hit was taking her daughter to prom, and so there was a HUGE fight because she wouldn't give us her id because TJ didn't have her license on her.... and then the woman's daughter started causing a scene and yelling in the streets and trying to take pictures of tj who was still sitting in the car and OMG it was a fiasco....
The whole time my mom and I were calmy trying to explain everything ans switch insurance, and the people were yelling and claiming they didn't hit us and all sorts of bullshit.

I can't even go into detail because I thought there was going to be a fight, but it was horrible and ignorant and a waste of our time. PLUS they damaged my fucking NEW BEAUTIFUL GOD DAMN CAR! I was upset... and after the whole fiasco was finally over the woman hadn't given up her insurance information... only her drivers license number, and her name... she wouldn't even show me her address for some shday reason..
And THIS is why I hate black people. They act so ignorant sometimes... and they never have any God damn insurance.

Ok, I'm pretty late now. PEACE folks!

Btw ladies, there will be a jewelry party at my house this Saturday the 29th at 6pm. Come and hang out and enjoy some snacks and wine! The jewelry is beautiful, and there will be lot's to look at and try on!! We will also be playing some fun games, so I hope you girls can make it!!
If you need more information please go to my myspace and read the blog that says "this is where you should be!!" I love you all and hope that every one of you girls can make it and bring a friend since I hardly ever see most off you!!

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It's time to face the truth. About everything. [27 Mar 2006|12:17pm]
I hate stupid people.
I also dislike crazy people.

Last week I stood infront of the fridge for nearly 5 minutes at 9am, and debated whether or not it was to early for a glass of wine. The wine won, of course.

Things with Scott are great, and I'm really really happy in that department.
School is not so good. I've lost all will to work and I'm completely through with school and homework and studying and classes and EVERYTHING basically. I can't even motivate myself to do important assignements anymore. It used to be bad, but now it's awful.

I wish I wasn't in school any more, but then I'd be working full time at a sucky job and I'd hate that too! SO it's basically just time for me to get moving and find some determination.

All week I had so much to write about, and now I have nothing.

I've gained a lot of weight lately, and it's SUCH a daunting task to go about losing it again. I don't want to exercise (cause I hate doing that) but there's no other choice. I'm pretty burnt out on dieting.

I'm hating today soo much! I was supposed to be in class an hour ago... and obviously I'm not there.

I have cramps, and I'm not feeling well.
I'm done!
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I'm a drama llama today. [20 Feb 2006|08:01am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

My mom quit her job in December and she doesn't have a new one yet. All she does is stay home and make me angry every day.

I passed all four sections of the FTCE-General Knowledge exam (TEACHER CERTIFICATION! what??!!!). Not only does that mean I don't have to retake it, but I also get accepted into the college of education now, and that's majorly important!

I don't want to complain too much, but I can't help it. It's really what I do best so here goes!

I'm tired and unhappy all the time. I even do it with Scott, and he makes me the happiest out of most of the people I know. (sometimes-unless we're having stupid discussions that make me upset!)

I can't take a joke, and I don't have any patience for stupidity or small annoyances. This is BAD. I plan on being an elementary school teacher. I need to be able to find humor in EVERYTHING, otherwise I won't last one second.

I'm stupid about a lot of things sometimes, and that makes me angry. I think it makes Scott angry too and that isn't good. I need to change a lot of my bad (ot incredibly dumb) habits, starting with the worst: Drinking and driving. A friend of mine got a DUI a while back, and she went to the courthouse to get her probabtion removed and they threw her in jail for like 2 weeks. That's a pretty serious consequence for such a preventable action.

I'm like that "Stupid girl" song by Pink. I need to pull my head out of my ass before it's too late!

My life has changed sooo much, even in the last 2 months or so. Things really aren't the same at all, and I'm a bit sad about that, but I'm ready for change. There's just no resisting it seems.

On Friday I went to the "Panic! at the Disco" show with little miss Jenna. I saw a bunch of people I knew, and had a wonderful time. I didn't like the other bands ::Acceptance, Hello Goodbye:: but "The Academy is" was alright. They had a lot of craziness in the pit, so I got nervous. I also got kicked in the head, and hit in the face.
Panic was amazing though, and I couldn't be happier that I got to see them. I danced the entire time, even though the crowd was insane and everyone was basically on top of one another.

I was supposed to be at class at 7:30. My clock tells me the time is now 8:15, but that really does't matter to me. I wish I could just do nothing for the rest of the semester.
I'm allready like .04 seconds away from dropping 2 of my classes and just calling it quits. I'm never going to get a degree... NEVER!

Well, I'm done making your day worse by complaining. Peace nigga's!

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Been a long time. [14 Feb 2006|11:46pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Being SIngle on Valentine's day sucks sooo much.
I always hated it, but never realized how ridiculously horrible it was until this year.
So to all those who were single this year... just keep hoping and looking. Don't forget that sometimes love won't look like you expect it to.... So stop trying to make your ideal scenario come true, because you will be waiting a long time.

Sooo Scott Thomas McCarthy made me a VERY happy girl this year by being my FIRST Valentine's boyfriend ever. With the help of Marie and myspace he got me some wonderful gifts, and made my day absolutely perfect.

So getting passed that, everything else in my life is messy and complicated. All of my relationships (except for with Scott) are skewered and uncomfortable. I'm changing, and I'm not sure I'm adjusting to who I have become. I'm not sure if I should adjust, or if I should just fight this alternate me for as long as possible.

Sooo, I have been meaning to write for like 2 weeks, but I just couldnt' be bothered. Well, now that I'm finally writing I'm drawing a comple blank to all the things I was supposed to fill you guys in on.

Well, life is good. Hope all of you can say the same!
HappyValentines Day

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[26 Jan 2006|12:21pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Do you want to hear something really strange/ridiculous?
For the last 4 years, I have been wishing to get down to the weight that I currently am at this exact moment. I have and ideal "goal weight" that is about 10 pounds less than I am at this time, but it's not comletely realistic. So yeah... The point is, I haven't been this size since about 9th grade, and it's something I've been wishing to achieve for a really long time.

Funny thing is, now that I am this weight/size, I'm still completely dissatisfied with my body. I still think I'm far to big, and I have a terrible "I look fat" complex whenever I put on ANYTHING. I can't understand why I'm not happy at this weight, since it's really exactly what I've been trying to achieve for years now.
I'm insane- there's nothing more to it.

School is really kicking my ass. Infact, life in general is kicking my ass. I know I promised not to do it, but for the last three weeks I have been living in this trippy fantasy world where nothing exists besides Scott.
I gave the balancing thing a try, but I'm not even nearly motivated enough to make it work. With Scott it's just so easy and uncomplicated. Or it was for a while at least...

I'm learning so much lately... it's good when there's someone else besides just you to think about and worry about and be considerate towards.

Well, I'm running ridiculously late for class, so I should go now.

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because sometimes a good nights sleep is all you need to set you right again. [19 Jan 2006|08:31am]
[ mood | groggy ]

Yesterday my mom and I spent some time together looking through this box of old keepsakes she had. She found the book she used to plan her wedding, and a bunch of other stuff. I looked through some of it with her for a while, but then I went back to getting ready for school. A bit later she came to my room and showed me a letter she had found. It was from me, to the Tooth Fairy, and it was dated Nov 1991. Wow... I was in first grade at the time!! That was like 15 years ago.
The letter read
"Dear Tooth fairy. Plese put $8 under my pillow. I am giving you till Friday to get my money. My tooth is in the case. <3 love Kezia Brittlebank
230 Teak Lane, Streamwood.

HAHAHAHA. I seriously had the nerve to underline "get". The great thing was that my mother still had the note and the little box w/a tooth in it saved. I'm going to be like that... saving all the crap my kids do, and then 15-20 years later I'm just going to bring it all out and be like "look what a little shit you were as a kid!"

It's been like 2 days or so since I last checked my email, so I got online to look at it just now and I have 33 new messages. Oh dear!
I'm hoping most of them are actually from myspace, but whatever. We'll see.

Anyway, yesterday I tried to fix my myspace, but it looked all weird so Scott helped me, and he made it look really good! I'm glad he's useful. I'm going to have him do my math homework next week. Good thing he's smart and has nothing to do in the afternoon's!!

Well, my life has been pretty ordinary this week. UCF has been screwing me over left and right, but there's nothing new with that. I should be getting ready to go to class right now, and then to the CMC to find a GKE study guide, but I'm not. I'm sitting here wasting sooo much time infront of my computer. All I want to do is sleep. I hate my life.
I don't really, but sometimes I wonder if God is punishing me... just a little bit you know. To keep me in line??

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Waiting for what's next [11 Jan 2006|08:00pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Aside from school and work (being their usual disagreeable sevles) I have probably had the best 2 weeks of my life. I've had such a good time reently with friends, family and most importantly.. my boyfriend.
Yes, I did say boyfriend, and no I'm not making things up. I am actually dating someone, and things are really great so far.

I am not going to say any more than that because if it's any of your business I'll probably tell you in person (or you already know) and if not then you don't need to know any more.

Soooo basically things have been great and I'm happy. I'm already learning how difficult it is to juggle the things that are most important to you in life... so I've been a tad bit stressed out trying to figure out how the hell I'm going to make things work.

I REFUSE to be one of those girls who stops hanging out with her friends because of a boyfriend. I'm also not going to be one of those girls who let's my boyfriend become an issue when relationships with my friends are concerned. We haven't talked about it much, but I plan to make a big conversation out of this... because I feel really stronly about the subject.

In other less exciting news (except for me) my dad is leaving tomorrow and peace and order can finally be restored to our household. Everyone will sleep through the night, and no one will be crazy anymore and things will be wonderful. Not that I don't love and appreciate having my father home with the family, but it is a strain on us all sometimes.

I'm really tired right now, but I plan on getting to bed early, unless I go out w/my peeps in which case I won't be getting to bed early at all.

There are lot's of school related problems that are arising this semester, and I need to get them all sorted out before they overwhlem me and I become stressed and unhappy.

Getting more sleep, and drinking/partying less are very important goals for me this year. I think that since I'm with Scott I'll probably be going out a bit less anyway, so that should help.

My dad bought me a new desk and helped me assmeble it and it looks great. I have a real bedroom now... no more kitchen table/desk/computer table/everything else in my room, and things are much more organized looking now. We'll see how long that lasts.
Whatever... I might be going to take a nap... or out to have some drinks. Who knows
<3<3<3 you all.

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[07 Jan 2006|04:01am]
[ mood | grateful ]

lj just ruined my night
mother fucker
I have to be at work in 4 hpours.
It took me 45 seconds to type have.
I hate my life.
But I don't reallt ...
whatev- I have a secret... that I won't disclose until I'm sober.
It's actually trhe best news you've ever heard

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in the new year [02 Jan 2006|01:53pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

I have developed quite an affinity for ruining perfectly good things. Whether it's from being a completle spaz, or just a complete retard, I have fucked up more perfectly great things than I could care to count.

So anyway, one of my most important New Years resolutions is to just let things be. Don't fuss with them, don't fuck with them... an most importantly do NOT sweat what isn't really important.

I'm going to look back at this at the end of 2006 and think "wow.. what the hell happened to these resolutions?"

I'm so pissed at UCF right now. They've honestly gone and fucked things up sooo badly as usual! I'm locked out of polaris but the computer center help desk people are on f'ing vacation or something. Honestly, who the hell do they think they are? The bank? I don't give a flying f**k if it's school holiday. My ass has to be at work first thing tomorrow and the rest of the week, and they should be too!

Grrrr. I need to choose my classes so I can get my work schedule sorted out. It makes me sooo annoyed that they're doing this.

oh! Big news. So last night I went on a date.. with a real boy (he's straight and everything)!! I actually am not sure if it was an official "date" but he did pay, and I did have a good time so we'll see.
I'm still really confused about the whole situation though. I think we could make it work, but the more I consider the possibilities the more anxious I become. He just needs to ask me out and get it over with before I have the opportunity to ruin one more good thing. It's really what I do best.

So, this is the first post of the New Year, and I just realized I started it out with bitching and complaining instead of hapiness and thanksgiving. 2005 is over, and a it's time to start again with something new. I'm trying to lose weight, finish my degree, start a relationship, make myself a better person, and repair shattered frienships. I've got a lot to do this year, but I'm going to do things the right way this time. By thinking and praying my way through every situation that may arise.

Well, it's January 2, 2006 and it's a beautiful day. I'm home relaxing with my wonderful family, and I will hopefully spend the evening w/my wonderful friends.

I love you all and I wish you and your loved ones the very best in this New Year.

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Sing it like you mean it. [26 Dec 2005|03:42pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

Christmas is my absolute favorite time of the year, and I used to think it was because of all the presents and getting things for people, but it's really just how I am.
I love the family being together, I love everyone just **TRYING** to get along and keep peace for just one full day. I love the music, and I love the decorations.
This Christmas was especially awesome because one special person made it great by saving Christmas Eve.

Anyway, I got a bunch of stuff for Christmas, my favorites being a Kodak Printer Dock, an IPOD nano(no idea what to do with it though...) and a gift certificate to "Coach."
I'm going shopping next week and it's going to be AMAZING!!!

I got a lot of other really great presents from friends and people I work with, so thank you guys for thinking of me and getting me awesome stuff!!

I'm a bit bored, but I don't feel like going anywhere and I definitely don't feel like fixing my hair (I took out the extensions) and so I'm just sitting here.
Going to do a little survey, and I'm going to keep it public against my better judgement. I'm so sick of secrets and things that shouldn't be said. I'm going to make a New Years resolution to be as honest and as open as possible. I hate feeling like some things shouldn't be said outloud, or discussed, even though they happened and they're real...
a small bit of honesty to sum up 2005Collapse )
Well, I hope you all had a merry Christmas and a very happy new Year!!

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[23 Dec 2005|03:59am]
[ mood | giddy ]

I=happy, and that= all that counts.
That's right bitches. I am happy and things are going well in my life... I ask so little, and I should think that once in a while I deserve for things to go well!!
<3 for those who are important to me!!

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[22 Dec 2005|10:04am]
[ mood | happy ]

The other night I was thinking about this year and how many things have changed in my life.
People I used to be great friends with I no longer speak to, and people who I never thought would mean much to me are the most important people in my life.

I don't understand how things can have changed SO MUCH in just the span of a year (less than that actually.. basically since over the summer) and my life could be so different now.

The biggest part of it was definitely the change in friends. The fact that Jason and I barely spoke for about 3 months is just unbelievable to me... The fact that Kim and I don't talk anymore is also hard for me to grasp. I still go into stores or see little things that make me think of her. I especially see it in Marie sometimes, when she flakes out on me at Disney and starts getting all excited because of all the "mgaic". Such a Kimberly thing to do really... but it's all good.

I've personally changed a lot too. I'm getting more serious about academics now. I changed my major finally, and I actually know what classes to take. I have a path and I'm going to follow it.
over the summer I lost a lot of weight, and that changed me as well. It gave me a little more confidence, because I wasn't as uncomfortable in my own body... and even so I've gained a couple pounds back, at least I know it's possible, and that I CAN do it if I need to.

What else? Oh the car... that's an important change. I'm not driving that camry anymore, and I've got that deliciously beautiful Altima, and it's perfect (not really... it's actually quite flawed but I don't ever mind) and it makes me happy. I don't even mind paying a ridiculous amount every month, because It makes me even prouder of the car. If I wasn't paying for it I wouldn't have as much pride and respect for what I have.

Ok, so I'm rambling and babbling. But I'm happy today and I have been all week, and that's nice. I like being happy. I think it's just leftover "good feeling" from the party we had on Sunday at Polly Pockets house!! There was a bounce house and a fire pit and lap dances and an icing fight and then a whipped cream fight... and all sorts of other fantastic activities.

Ooh! I have pictures!!! posting some would be a FABULOUS idea, ehCollapse )

Sooo yeah, that was just a few pictures from the party, but if you have a myspace and you are my friend then go ahead and look at the rest of them there on my blogs. There are more than 60, so you know it was a crazy party!

Okay... I'm wasting SOOO MUCH precious time!! I'm OUT!

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if I didn't have the finer things in life... [10 Dec 2005|12:05am]
[ mood | tired ]

I'm dieting and exercising again. The first couple days are always REALLY REALLY hard, but I'm trying to just launch myself into a routine because otherwise I will be fat and unhappy for the rest of my break.
I would much rather be thin and unhappy... don't you think?
Anyway Finals are over and I want to celerbrate by partying it up, but I can't because I have to work in the morning. Don't get me wrong... I LOVE my job and my coworkers and my bosses. But I DON'T love waking up at 6:30am to be at work for 7:30.
Oh well... real life begins soon and this is probably as good as I will have it until I'm like retired or something.

If anyone wants to go to the gym but feels they need a partner just call me... I won't refuse (if I do just remind me again how big and gross my gut is getting) and I will motivate you and stay as long as you want... (but we at least have to do an hour)
Sooo yeah

The other night someone asked me to be their (heterosexual) "guest" to a gay wedding... I couldn't think of anything stranger... except maybe being in a gay wedding myself...?

SO mostly I'm being motivated to lose a few pounds so I can look hott in my dress at the wedding... but really I need to drop 10 pounds.
My actual goal was to be 140... but I'm soo far away and I'm not giving up hope, but I am being really realisic.

<3<3<3 you all!

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Read this and LOVE IT! [08 Dec 2005|04:03pm]
[ mood | happy ]

This is for your own good my loves.

This is funny but very very very accurate...everyone should read this....BEFORE u go out to eat again :o)

Subject: The Restaurant Guide for people that dont work in one
Body: Body: The next time your out eating at a resturant, look at your server. Do you think they are really happy to be doing that job? The answer is no, they are not, but its what we do, and we do it for the money so please help them out. Its a tougher job than you think and you should pay them accordingly!

There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse.

If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (ie; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restraunt. It's very distracting not to mention dangerous if they get ran over by a server with hot food in their hands.

If you feel the necessity to stay for longer than 15 minutes after you pay, its an extra $3 every 30 minutes. We make our money from the tables. If you are in one and we can't seat it, we don't make money.

Telling a server they are the best server they've ever had is not a tip. If we are good, let us know by leaving us more money. We cant pay our bills on compliments. Its not that we don't appreciate the praise, its just that if you say that and then leave 10% it's an insult.

Prayer cards and any other religious pamphlet is NOT a tip. It is insulting that you assume we are w/o religion and must save us. Again, like ..4, we cant pay bills w/prayer cards. We'd go to church on Sundays if it wasn't mandatory to work on Sundays because EVERYONE who goes to church follows it by eating out. Also don't try to preach to us while we are working. We don't go to your work and put you down so don't do it to us.

It is not 1960. Cost of living has gone up dramatically since then. 18% is the MINIMUM amount of what you should be tipping your servers. Just look at the tax line and multiply by 2-3, this gives you your minimum tip amount. Remember, our companies pay us minimum wage (minumum wage for servers is $6.75 in CA, only $2.13 in AZ, $3.13 in FL!) And we are taxed on 10 percent of your meal automatically anyway. So if you dont leave a tip, WE END UP PAYING FOR YOUR MEAL!!

p.s. or tip 2 dollars for every 10 dollars you spend (this is 20% duh)

If you get a discount because of your food was prepared wrong or something, do not take it out of our tip. We didn't cook it. The cooks get paid hourly regardless if the food sucks. However, we only make what you give us.

If you come into the restraunt 10 mins before closing or any time near closing hurry up and order your food and get out. Closed means closed, not social hour. It is so rude to sit there and take your sweet ass time. We can't leave until you leave because we have to do sidework and clean the table you are sitting at. We don't want to stand there waiting for you for an extra hour just because you don't want to go home. We recommend 24 hour establishments such as Dennys if you wish to sit into the wee hours of the night.

If you only come in for coffee or a dessert, to do paper work, or to have a meeting, don't sit there taking up our booths for hours. We are not Starbucks or a hotel restraunt. If you want to sit for hours, go there or else you better leave a good tip for us and camping fee included.

When we come up to the table to greet you and we ask how you are doing please let us know. We honestly want to know how you are doing. If you are in a bad mood we want to know that from the beginning. A confused stare or complete silence does not suffice as a reply to "How are you doing?". Also don't interrupt our greeting and say "I want coffee", "can we get some bread, or "what are the soups?"

Don't ever talk on your cell phone in a restraunt. This is probably the rudest thing to do. If you must be on your cell, at least keep your voice down in respect for other customers. If you are on your cell phone when we walk up to greet your table we will walk away until you get off your phone. Just show some respect and give us your attention for a couple of minutes.

Always remember to tip the take-out order servers! They work just as hard as a server, and hardly ever get tips for it! WE DESERVE TO BE TIPPED TOO!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SERVERS READING THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please repost this so the word can get out, since so many people are uneducated about tips and our lives depend on this - atleast for now......

~In news that's completley unrealted, today was the last day of finals for me! I'm elated. I also think I passed all my classes. That's right... not 1/4, not even 3/4 but 4/4
That's right guys!! I'm not as stupid as you thought I was. This semester I took basket making 2304, lego building 1001, oogling your hot teacher 1600, and eating in the student union at LEAST twice a week 2020 some really f'ing hard classes so you should all be very proud of me.
Those of you who still have another week+ to go I wish you peace, sanity, and the ability to remember about 120,000 random tidbits of information that you will never EVER need to recall again in your life!!


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this is what I think about that [05 Dec 2005|10:09am]
Today is Monday. I usually prefer Monday's over Thursday's or Friday's or even Saturday's.
Do you know WHY I love Monday so? Because today is the ONLY day in my week where I can sleep past 8, and then get up and lie around watching Regis and Kelly and TODAY.

Yeah... I look forward to the small things in mylife.
This week is finals... and I'm stressing a lot because I'm not even nearly prepared. In my mind it'slike the first week in November still. I haven't even LEARNED anything this semester. NOTHING!

This weekend I started my Christmas shopping and didn't do one other productive thing. I have this MOUNTAIN of finals preperations to get into and it just didn't happen.

I'm watching the news right now and some building in Oviedo burned down last night.
Apparently it was a candle store, and when they showed the picture it looked like somewhere on Broadway near the Townhouse.

I thought I was ready to write, but I'm far too distracted now and worried about the upcoming week.
OH well... it's time for me to end this.
Good luck with finals UCF
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instead of studying for one of my most important exams... [01 Dec 2005|10:33am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

I could cry, but I won't cause that only means that you've won and that I've given up.
Why does this matter so much to me? I don't know, but I think the real question is why does this matter so little to you.

I missed my final American History class this morning. Partly because of myspace, partly because of a slight hangover, and mostly because of my mother.
Wiat... scratch that. It was no one's fault but my own... but I'm feeling low enough as it is and I really need someone/something else to place the blame on.

I got sucked into working tonight because I'm wayyyy too much of a pushover, and I'm in desperate need of some extra money.
Honestly, it's Christmas time. Who couldn't use extra money.
I'm getting fat again.
I miss Debra.
I am whining.
You don't know I'm whining, but as I'm typing these words the voice in my head has a very "woe is me" tone to it that is pissing me off a bit.

Time to go.
There's MUCH MUCH work to be done.

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A sickness... a curse; brought on by indulging too much, and loving too litte. [29 Nov 2005|10:29am]
[ mood | content ]

I really hate rainy days. Especially the ones where I have a million thigns to do and places to go and I have to be gettin wet every other second.

I was sooo sick at the begining of this semester, and things didn't start getting better until I began eating right and partying less. So I have basically been the picture of health for the past three months, and NOW that it is finals week and I've been tired and stressed enough, I am getting sick again.

I'm praying it's the plague/ a good bout of the bird flu because I would actually rather die than take my finals, but whatever.
So Jason and I finally talked the other night. I suppose things are going better now, but they can always change. We'll see... I think we both need to sort out a lot of personal issues before things can go back to normal again... but we're on the right track.

The other night we had potluck at Gabie's and we were supposed to go see Debra, but by the time we all got our shit together it was late and I think she was asleep.

I was really dissapointed about that because I seriously miss my Debra, but she's home now and recovering every day so I suppose things are looking up. I should call her, but I'm afraid she'll be all disoriented and not know who I am or something.

This has been a week for really good things and really bad things. Mixed emotions and complications and it's only Tuesday. Things always get worse before they get better...
I'm just wondering when the turn around will come. How much 'worse' will everything be before it's good times again.

Anyway, I'm going to stop now because I feel like as a rule, most of the things that come out of my mouth are negative, or grumbling and complaining.
I look at my life and most of the things around me are blessings and miracles of God! But all I seem do is moan about the petty things that tick me off.

Now I'm asking all of you to take an active role is reminding me how fortunate I am, and keeping me from grumbling and complaining.

Things could be better, but they could also be (and were at times) much MUCH worse...
It's the Holiday season, and it's time to give and love and be immensley thankful for the good things in our lives.

I could go on... but I think I'm done here for now.
<3<3<3 you all.

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I'm thankful for... [24 Nov 2005|05:33pm]
[ mood | about to be very full ]

Every Thanksgiving my family goes around the table before we eat and everyone says something they are thankful for. You can say more than one, but I usually just try to choose one thing that I appreciate the most. This year I think I am most thankful for my mother, who is an amazing person and a really wonderful woman. I can complain and complain about tw, but in the end I wouldn't know what to do without her.

Anyway, just wondering what all of you are thankful for on this holiday??

Let me know...because after I stuff myself silly I'm going to need some online entertainment to keep me busy whilst I'm lying in bed moaning about how full I am.

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